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[23 Feb 2009|11:17am] |
Brian's in jail.
For life.
He beat me up again... And did some other things... that are just too... graphic and personal to put on lj.
I have a son that I now have to raise alone, with no father for him.
Life is peachy.
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[13 Oct 2008|03:09pm] |
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Brian and I split up.
I am absolutely torn about it. I wish that he were a better person.
-He acts like he's my father.
I'm tired of playing his games. I just want to focus on my son.
I need to go to school.
Alright. Love.
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[01 Oct 2008|07:57pm] |
IDK exactly what to write today.
I don't want to write anything that someone can judge me about later, ya know? I'm just kinda . . . fed up with everyone giving me their two cents, when in all actuality... their two cents don't mean shit to me. I do like the good advice, however. Just the people that make hypocritical statements, ALL OF THE TIME. I can't take it! Leave me alone already, wouldja?
Anyway.
Yea.
Gonna go.
IDK why I even came to write. Don't really feel like letting the personal side of me out just yet.
love.
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[30 Sep 2008|10:45am] |
Aaron's crazy. He keeps scratching my hands trying to get at the keyboard. It's NUTS. =) He's so big. It feels like only yesterday that he was born. Now he's over a year old. What happened? Don't ask me, because I don't know. He walks, and tries to run... He recently learned how to give out 5's... Daddy taught him how to do that...
It's amazing what having a child can do to someone. The most amazing kisses used to come from someone else... Now they're from my bald man, and they are very wet, and with a LOT of tongue. =) (He hasn't got the whole kissing thing down yet, but he DOES know what it is.)
*exhales* he's probably the sweetest thing I've ever laid eyes on.
That was his birthday cake mix. Yes, he IS spoiled.
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[29 Sep 2008|09:45am] |
It's been over 2 years since the last time I was on here.
Where did the time go?
I read over my old entries, and remembered them as if they were only yesterday.
Updates? I have a 14 month old son, named Aaron-Jamison.
His father's name is Brian Blair.
Brian and I are together; not married.
We have our own apartment...
Oh, I have a 12 month old step daughter, named Shelby Grace.
-Daughter of Ashley Hayes.
Oh... what else..
lol Levi and I don't talk anymore. My journals seemed to always be about him.
I don't really talk to... anyone anymore.
No more Mooner, no more Twizzler... no Anal Boo... No Lys...
Just me, and my family.
Oh. I talk to Leslie Hayes and Sarah Val, too.
Life is... hard, now. Before it seemed so easy, and so full... Now... I feel empty.
I don't attend church regularly. heh. I don't attend church at ALL, really.
*exhales* ok. I'm gonna go.
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[27 Dec 2005|04:47pm] |
ahahahaa
in canada
ahahahaha
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[18 Sep 2005|05:35pm] |
no no no
no no no
oh my fucking god
no no no
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yesterday, it was just a tree
there for one purpose
meant nothing
they were messy in the fall
and they were meaningless when they died
today it is so much more
a beautiful piece of landscaping
full of life, full of inspiration
a wonderful piece of art.
idk?
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[22 Jul 2005|02:50pm] |
hahaha
feels good to be able to write on here.
*sorry, was grounded*
well, since i have a very boring life, i will go.
x3 me, m.beth
xxxxxxx
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Mmhmm, it did happen.
Crap.
Well, idk if it's "crap" yet.
<333
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what if it happens? what do i do then?
... im lost in confusion and i dont' know what to do.
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[23 Jun 2005|01:44am] |
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ARE YOU CURRENTLY GROUNDED?
NOT ANYMORE!! hahaha
DO YOU SNORE?
No, but I grind my teeth.
ARE YOU A LOVER OR A FIGHTER?
Oh... a lover. *batts eyes*
WHAT'S YOUR WORST FEAR?
Losing my glasses; not being able to see.
AS A KID, WERE YOU A LEGO MANIAC?
Absolutely.
WHAT DO YOU THINK OF "REALITY" TV?
I don't like it, at all.
DO YOU CHEW ON YOUR STRAWS?
Sometimes... [when i dont have a piece of gum]
WERE YOU A CUTE BABY?
lol Yea, actually. I mean everyone thinks that they were... but I was
WHAT COLOR IS YOUR KEYBOARD?
white
DO YOU SING IN THE SHOWER?
UHM, yuh!!
HAVE YOU EVER BUNGEE JUMPED?
No... *damnit*
ANY SPECIAL TALENTS?
... no.
WHAT'S YOUR IDEAL VACATION SPOT?
somewhere nice, and warm.. where there isn't a lot of people.
IS JAY LENO FUNNY?
Not really.
CAN YOU SWIM?
Underwater, yes. Above.. not so much.
HAVE YOU SEEN THE MOVE "DONNIE DARKO"?
Flip yes.
DO YOU GIVE A DAMN ABOUT THE OZONE?
Actually, yes I do. :( I really dont want to get like skin cancer -n- stuff.
HOW MANY LICKS DOES IT TAKE TO GET TO THE CENTER OF A TOOSTIE POP?
1,077
CAN YOU SING THE ALPHABET BACKWARDS?
lol yea
HAVE YOU EVER BEEN ON AN AIRPLANE?
noperz.
ARE YOU AN ONLY CHILD?
heck no!
DO YOU PREFER ELECTRIC OR MANUAL PENCIL SHARPENERS?
manual..
WHAT'S YOUR STAND ON HUNTING?
No frickin way. i heart the animals.
IS MARRIAGE IN YOUR FUTURE?
Most definitely.
DO YOU LIKE YOUR HANDWRITING?
I change it every so often.
WHAT ARE YOU ALLERGIC TO?
Nothing! *hahaha*
WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU SAID "I LOVE YOU"?
like 4 hours ago.
IS TUPAC STILL ALIVE?
Yes. So is Truu, and Biggie!
DO YOU CRY AT WEDDINGS?
No..?
HOW DO YOU LIKE YOUR EGGS?
Spangled. *cracks up*
ARE BLONDES DUMB?
NO!!
WHAT TIME IS IT?
2:01am
DO YOU HAVE A NICKNAME?
I have a million.
IS MCDONALD'S DISGUSTING?
No... I heart the selects.
WHO'S YOUR HERO?
My mom, for being so strong..
WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU WERE IN A CAR?
Yesterday. [WOW..]
DO YOU PREFER BATHS OR SHOWERS?
Showers....
IS SANTA CLAUSE REAL?
Mmm..
ARE YOU AFRAID OF THE DARK?
Yes, terrified.
WHAT ARE YOU ADDICTED TO?
I have no addictions. ;)
CRUNCHY PEANUT BUTTER OR REGULAR?
NEITHER. *throws up*
CAN YOU CRACK YOUR NECK?
yepperz
HAVE YOU EVER RIDDEN IN AN AMBULANCE?
yessss.
HOW MANY TIMES HAVE YOU BRUSHED YOUR TEETH TODAY?
Twice. [will be 3 b4 i go to bed] :)
IS DRUG FREE THE WAY TO BE?
Most definitely. *grin*
ARE YOU A HEAVY SLEEPER?
No.
WHAT COLOR ARE YOUR EYES?
Blue... and green... and they have an orange ring around the pupil.
HOW LOUD DO YOU SNEEZE?
It sounds like a little girlie.
DO YOU LIKE YOUR LIFE?
Ehh.
WHAT'S YOUR BEST FRIEND'S NAME?
Levi Michael.
WHO'S BETTER: STONE COLD OR THE ROCK?
The Rock. *fer sher*
HAVE YOU READ "CATCHER IN THE RYE"?
No..
DO YOU PLAY ANY INSTRUMENTS?
Well back in the day -clarinet, flute, tuba...-
CAN YOU SKATEBOARD?
Heh. I'm no Bam Margera.
CAN YOU SNOWBOARD?
lol no
DO YOU LIKE CAMPING?
FLIP YES
ARE YOU HORNY?
Definitely..... not.
DO YOU SNORT WHEN YOU LAUGH?
No... effing weirdo.
DO YOU BELIEVE IN MAGIC?
depends on what type of magic. potions and stuff? no.
ARE DOGS A MAN'S BEST FRIEND?
lol I don't know. *Boo on this question*
CAN YOU DO THE MOONWALK?
HAHAHA YESSSSSSSss
DO YOU MAKE A LOT OF MISTAKES?
*nods*
IS IT COLD OUTSIDE TODAY?
No... actually it's too hot.
WHAT WAS THE LAST THING YOU ATE?
uhm... yogurt.
DO YOU WEAR NAIL POLISH?
No. I hate it on my fingernails. I paint my toes thow.
HAVE YOU EVER BEEN KISSED?
*halo* mmhmm.
WHAT'S THE MOST ANNOYING TV COMMERCIAL?
ALL COMMERCIALS.
DO YOU SHOP AT AMERICAN EAGLE?
Sometimes.
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I HAVE CHANGED SOMETHING!
In the most recent survey that I did... it said which of my friends is the weirdest.
My new answer is Nanuh. ;)
hahahahahahahahaha
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something weird has happened.
something very weird.
maybe... it's not so weird.
but deff. different.
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[21 Jun 2005|02:07am] |
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*was bored, so took from Mooner* ~~ wow... haven't used that name in a while..
What is your name?: Amanda
Spell your name backwards: Adnama
Date of birth: September 25, 1989
Male or female?: Female
Astrological sign: Libra
Nicknames: Nanderz, Nani, ManDork
Occupation: [none] *technically-student*
Height: 5'4"
Weight: 130
Hair color: I d k. Brown & blonde?
Eye color: Idk? Blue, green, and orange.
Where were you born?: Annapolis, maybe.
Where do you reside now?: Romulus...
Age: 15
Screen names: cutevvithoutthee
E-mail address: softballsweetness10@hotmail.com
What does your screen name stand for?: uhm... it's a song.
What is your livejournal name?: crackwhorejimmy
What does your journal name stand for?: idfk. lol mooner and i were goofin'..
Pets: Puppy... and ex-birdie. :( **R.I.P Ziggy-my niggy**
Number of candles you blew out on your last birthday cake: 15
Piercings: 3
Tattoo's: [none]
Shoe size: 8
Righty or lefty:
Wearing: rhs sweatpants and white tank top (wife-beater..)
Hearing: Ron's loud mouth talking to people in the game he's playing..
Feeling: Annoyed..... a tweak bit.
Eating/drinking: Cherry coke.
~Which One of Your Friends is the...~
Craziest?: kyle
Loudest?: levi
Nicest?: robert.
Most popular?: i dont hang out with popular people. ;)
Life of the party?: dont go to parties. but? Biggie Smalls. *w00*
Jock?: levi
Prep?: rustler *haha*
Rebel?: christen... *not twizzler*
Cutest?: *grin* Levi
Best friend of the same sex?: Don't have one.
Best friend of the opposite sex?: Levi... besides boyfriend? Staff.
Quietest?: erick.
Rudest?: melissa.
Most shy?: erick.
Ditzyest?: hahaha Biggie!!
Smartest?: Me, of course. ;)
Weirdest?: Me..
Has the best hair?: Saruh Kaye
Best personality?: I don't hang out with people with personality. ;) (all)
Most talented?: Levi.
Most ghetto?: Freakin' all of them are ghetto.
Most spoiled?: Spoiled... hmm... well, i don't think any of them are spoiled. NO WAIT. EVERYONE WHO HAS A CAR OR CELL PHONE. peep that.
Drama queen?: Me.
Pain in the butt?: Ugh. Melissa Rae, definitely.
Funniest?: Kyle
Best advice given?: Biggie..
Most popular with the teachers?: Me. :) Definite brown-noser.
Most likely to join a cult?: hahaha Biggie and Tupac!
Have you lost touch with a good friend recently?: I've made all new friends... so.... yea.
Person you've been friends with the longest?: Melissa.
Cucumberella?: flip yes. *wtf?*
~Boys/Love/Kissing/and Other Stuff~
Why do you like your crush?: because he's flipping awesome
*-*What do you look for in a guy/girl?: let's go into detail.. shall we? I have recently changed. Now... in a guy, I look for someone I can trust, and someone who will listen to me when I talk. I'm not just there for them to rely on. I also look for humor, and strength. mental strength, not physical. appearance... doesn't really matter to me anymore. Levi's looks is just a flippin' plus, okay?*-*
What's the first thing you notice about the opposite sex?: well obviously this is going to be physical... so hair/eyes.
What type of guy/girl do you usually go for?: uhm... idk.
Do you have a bf/gf?: Yep.
If so where did you meet them?: Church.
What do you like most about your bf/gf?: I'm not going to be corny *cough* and say "everything." The thing that I like most about Levi is the fact that he supports my love for God. I think that with the people that I used to hang out with, they don't really care if I loved God or not. But Levi? He helps me with it... and I love him for that.
Do you have a crush right now?: Yes..
If so who is it?: Levi Michael Adams.
Do you believe in love at first sight?: No. So many times have I thought I was in love... by looks. --example: when i first saw -- i thought i was in love. time has passed... and now... i am disgusted by him. definitely not love. at all.
Do you believe in fate?: yes..
Do you believe in soul mates?: yes..
If so do you believe you'll ever find yours?: yes i do believe i'll find mine [if haven't already] yes... soon, but... ya never know. don't judge me, please.
~Family Stuff~
How many siblings do you have?: full? 2.
What are your parents names?: Lisa & Patrick
What are your siblings names?: Ronald and Christopher
How many siblings does your mother have?: 3
How many siblings does your father have?: 2?
Where are your parents from?: Michigan.
Is your family close?: Closer than most.
Does your family get together for holidays?: Yes
Do you have a drunk uncle?: lol not anymore.
Any medical problems run through your family?: Oh sure.
Does someone in your family wear a toupee?: No.. I don't think. *Even though some should.* :X!
Do you have any nieces or nephews?: Not yet.
Are your parents divorced?: Who I consider my real father and mother, no.
Do you have step parents?: Technically, yes.
Has your family ever disowned another member of your family?: Nope.
If so for what?: ---
Did some of your family come to America from another country?: Definitely no.
~Music Stuff~
What song do you swear was written about you or your life?: ---
What's the most embarrassing CD you own?: ---
What's the best CD you own?: any of them.
What song do you absolutely hate?: new shakira song. or new missy elliot song.
Do you sing in the shower?: Yes.
What song reminds you of that special someone?: I Caught Fire
~I Name an Artist and You Give a Song ~
Pink: pill (i think?)
Aerosmith: I don't wanna miss a thing?
Madonna: Yes, like a virgin.
Korn: All in the family
Backstreet Boys: Incomplete
The Beatles: She loves ¿you? *yea yea yea*
Sublime: What I got
J.Lo: If you had my love
Nsync: if im not the one you want
Limp Bizkit: Break Stuff
Britney Spears: im not a girl... bleh bleh
Creed: With Arms Wide Open
Enrique Iglesias: Hero
Good Charlotte: Seasons *tear*
Christina Aguilera: Dirty
Eminem: I aint never seen an ass like that *gay*
New Found Glory: Shadow
Kelly Clarkson: Since You've Been Gone
Kelly Osbourne: Shut Up
Mandy Moore: Only Hope
Eve: Love Is Blind
Aaliyah: I care 4 u *really the title. icky*
Nelly: Work it *feat. justin timberlake*
Alicia Keys: Fallin
Incubus: Wish You Were Here
~Favorites~
Color: Light blue.
Food: Icecream.
Song: Hallelujah
Show: Charmed
School subject: Spanish
Band/singer: I guess Newsboys
Animal: Siberian tiger cub.
Outfit: sweatpants w/ tank top.
Radio station: 88.7
Movie: William Shakespeare's Romeo & Juliet.
Pair of shoes: Flip Flops.
Cartoon: Uhm.... I suppose Family Guy.
Actor: Chad Michael Murray
Actress: Julia Roberts
Potato chip: Lays.. i guess.
Drink: Wild Cherry Pepsi.
Alcoholic drink: I don't drink.
Holiday: Independence Day
Perfume/cologne: Sadly? Curious. Love the smell. (couldn't think of any other name)
Pizza topping: Pepperoni.
Jello flavor: Strawberry
Lunch meat: Ham.
Board game: Disney Trivia *w00t*
Video game: Halo 2
Website: Sadly - Livejournal. hahaha. Shows how much I heart internet. Oh! I also adore the newsboys website. *drools*
Book: hehe *the sex chronicles* J/K! Speak.
Computer game: Diablo II
Number: 10 and 7 O:)
Cereal: Lucky Charms * Apple Jacks * Frosted Flakes
Comedian: Uhm.. when i watch? git 'r' done guy.
Dessert: icecream
Disney character: hehehe mickey mouse
Clothing store: flip yes. walmart. *does this count* if not? forever 21
Pasttime: uhm.. hmm.. i guess i d k.
Teacher: Mr. Smith/Patterstud.
Childhood toy: my nano pet beanie babie.
Carnival game/ride: the zipper
Candy bar: carmello
Magazine: cosmo
Salad dressing: ranch
Thing to do on the weekend: go to church.
Hot drink: hot apple cider.
Season: spring
Sport to watch: baseball
Person to talk to online: staff (levi has no computer) *bummed facey*
~This or That~
Coke/Pepsi: Pepsi
Doughnuts/bagels: Donuts.
Day/night: Depends.
Wicked witch of the east/wicked witch of the west: Wicked witch of the nerd
Heaven/hell: Heaven.
Computer/TV: Computer.
Coffee/tea: HATE TEA. Love coffee.
Hamburgers/hotdogs: Hotdogs. Unless they are from a fast food place. Then hamburgers... unless im at coney island or a&w. then doggies.
Rap/rock: Rock
Britney/Christina: Christina.
Swiss cheese/American cheese: American
Real World/Road Rules: Ick.
Backstreet Boys/Nsync: Actually.. Both now. Before- Nsync. But? I heart incomplete, so...
Silver/gold: Silver... for jewelry.
Nikes/Adidas: Adidas.
McDonalds/Burger King: Burger King- for chicken whopper McDonalds- for Selects
Sweet/sour: Sweet
Punk/emo: Emo
Hot/cold: Hot... for showering. lol Cold... for drinking.
Winter/summer: Summer
Spring/fall: Spring. :)
Operas/plays: Plays..
Read/watch TV: If I have a good book-read.
CD's/tapes: Cd's.. unless they're my Uncle Mickey's tapes.
DVD's/vhs: DVD's.
Old/new: Depends. So.. both?
Shorts/skirts: Skirts.
Pink/red: Pink
Colored pictures/black and white photos: Definitely Black and White.
Meat/vegetables: Definitely both.
Mexican food/chinese food: La comida china *right saruh??*
Commercials/infomercials: UGH. neither! *frickin idiots*
Scary movies/comedies: Both.. I heart movies.
Bikinis/one piece bathing suits: If I didn't have fat.. bikinis.
Sandals/tennis shoes: Sandals.
Dogs/cats: Puppers
Unicorns/fairies: Fairies!!
Water/land: Ick. I HATE water. :) So definitely land.
Sugar/spice: Sugar..
Black/white: When referring to colors... Black.
Ribbons/bows: Ribbons..
Chicken/beef: Chicken
Colored christmas lights/regular white christmas lights: Colored
Cars/trucks: Trucks.
Austin Powers/James Bond: Austin Powers
Popcorn/pretzels: Popcorn
Hip/hop: *busts out in song* O:) I said a hip a hop....
Passionate kiss/peck: Passionate kiss.... anyday.
WWE wrestling/real wrestling: WWE wrestling. unless it's me watching Joe Lewis.
Back rub/foot massage: Back rub.
Picture frames/photo albums: Photo albums.
Pens/pencils: Pencils
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schools out
whoopdy doo.
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THOUGHTS:
-softball sucks, because the coaching sucks.
-the yearbooks suck this year.
-i want to live in a "fairy tale" world.
-my toes look cute with a toe ring.
-i think im -dare i say- happy.
[except for softball *rawr!*]
-stoh sucks my butt.
-so does math. i liked doing this []expand this binomial equation: (x+y)^5. but I don't like doing what we're doing now. *growls at alg.2*
-school is almost over...
-i dont think im ready for summer yet... *scratches eyebrow*
okay.
that's all.
i love you guys.
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23 to 15...
Us.
Heck freakin yea.
I got 3 rbi's and a triple with my line drive out to center.. *w00t*
So, yea...
loll....
<3 me
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well..
what do i write?
how about...
i miss my friends. i really do. like hanging out with my friends.
i envy those who hang out with you guys now.
*coughs* i dont even wanna talk about most of them, though.
Most of them, i shouldn't even want to hang out with ... but then there are the people -annie- who i miss immensely..
then there are the others.. who everytime im around i feel like i just need to squeeze them.. *you know*
*exhales*
i want my old life/friends back.. but with the person i am today.
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BLEH!
Leave comments in here.. if you even READ my journal anymore, not that I ever write in it.
THANKS Nanuh.
:)
But I think I'm gonna like Never write in here again, if no one even reads it.
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